Just decided to take out my frustration in here... I'm way to fucking pissed off that I don't even know who to blame...
I just found out this Sunday about this Fucking-Infernal-Metal Bonner-Gig by the Sea and started to get information on how the fuck to be able to make it to this trip...
I live in fucking Mexico, so as you all know, we all need fucking Visa to even go and fart once inside the USA and get back to this shitty rat hole... and is not THAT easy to get that stupid ID... but, you know, the phrase: Everything for Metal... So I researched and found out that actually I could get the fucking Visa in at least 1 month... first get the stupid appointment and then go to the fucking interview... but then I remembered my passport had expired like 3 years ago, so I would have to spend on that too... not a problem, I thought, it's like 1 paycheck... but then the doubts started, due to the difficulty on getting the stupid Visa... one friend told me that I will never get it... other told me that if I purchased the airplane ticket to go to Miami and the Cruise ticket then the possibility on getting it would increase a lot... the last friend I talked to, which is actually the one I was going to get on board, just told me: I understand, I'm also way too fucking excited to go, but if we want to get into that Cruise, we would have to stop drinking and smoking for at least 1 year, so we could pay all the fucking debts we would get because of this trip... And then, in that moment, I just closed my eyes and thought: Fuck me, Fuck Satan, Fuck this country, Fuck My Poverty... and said: I don't give up my addictions for anything... Maybe some of you will consider me a fucking pussy, others might agree that whenever it comes to money and debts we should just say no... I know that I just wrote it: Everything for Metal... Believe me, I would, if I had a secured job, if I didn't have to pay rent, if I had at least some fucking savings, but I don't... I just can't afford it... and that pisses me way to fucking much... It hurts... It fucking hurts like fucking Hell! Today, one guy at work told me that I shouldn't complain about this, that how come I could possibly feel bad for a fucking gig, even after telling him that it was going to be 40 bands playing live fr 4 fucking days... I just said: I think I feel Music way too fucking much... Anyway, I'm not going to be able to make it, but still, after thinking things over I came to an idea that, maybe it sounds stupid, but I think it will make me feel less miserable... I thought on going to Cozumel [at least for getting there I just need a Mexican ID] I would get there 1 day prior the Cruise gets there so I can meet some of you at the port and get some drinks and some Metal time together
I'm still working on this, but I beleive it's not a bad idea, I just want at least to get the chance to see the Cruise and maybe, meet some of the bands... would be nice... I need to settle things up, when I have my flight tickets I'll let you know so we can arrange a meeting
I wish all of you have a great time and enjoy this as if it was the last gig on earth hehe... Headbang until you feel you head is going to explode!!!
Fucking drink a lot and take as much pictures as you can!!!
And now... I'm getting back to real life... Work sucks!!!